...omg...Jhud's WW Blog!

So, after talking to my shrink last night (she's more like a really hip old college professor lol), I decided that I needed to reboot my WW. I've talked about it on here a couple blogs ago. Especially since I realized that you get the same plan material on the website I just haven't been looking at it because the WW site has SOOOO much shit on it now! The last time I did WW online there was no topic of the week, no weekly to do lists (which actually keep me really focused and I love it), BLOGS hello! People can have blogs now. And like pictures in their profile and stuff! The profiles are very much like facebook now it's really friggin cool...I just need to learn how to use the dam site and not just the plan manager. Cause I realized that dammit I know the plan I been doing this long enough (since 2005). Yes points values change but he basic principles are all still the same but...I haven't been focusing on ALL of the principles and by not really using ALL of the WW site I've cut out a big support system for myself. Yes I have a shrink but she's like 120 lbs soaking wet---and what I like most about the WW community is that you hear from people who are doing what you're doing in real time with no filter. Which brings me to my latest discovery...JHud's got a blog on WW! Like she has like a real profile. You can follow her blog and post comments to it! It's crazy! I figured it'd probably be something that her publicist is churning out for WW but it really sounds like her and she sounds genuine. Maybe one day I will tell her about my hate on? lol...I am of course following her blog IN SUPPORT! Because if you haven't garnered my Unnecessary JHud Hate On is not really about Jennifer Hudson, it's more about me. Seeing her is a reminder like seeing anyone who's lost weight----that I'm NOT losing weight. Which is a shitty way to be so though I may make those off handed comments I signed up to follow her blog so that I can get out of that mindset. Especially because if feels so black on black crime lol. No for real. It's that simple minded ignorant mentality of "Since I don't have it you can't have it either". I am not that girl! But I have to work through both these emotional bad habits as well as my bad eating and moving habits....oh fyi...did 5 squats this morning :). Gotta keep the glutes fired up so my hip/sacrum doesn't slip again... like it did yesterday morning lol... Phlabbs Out, Earl

Post Oscar's Thoughts....

Well besides not watching the Oscar's alone (watched it with my Bareboned Theatre Peeps) and actually attending a get together the highlights of the Oscar's were James Franco being STONED OUT OF HIS MIND, Anne Hathaway's musical tribute to Hugh Jackman, and Helena Bonham Carter...because she's friggin Helena Bohnam Carter lol. But afterwards like a sappy actor I did the one thing NO actor will admit to...I practiced my Oscar speech on the way home. Yeah, I realized the easiest way to make me cry ....imagine I'm winning an Oscar LOLOLOLOL. But one the reals, this is one reason I don't really like watching the Oscars, or figure skating, or dance movies, or anything performance based because I get so upset that can't get on stage an do it myself. It's maddening! So, besides wanting realllll bad to be at the Oscar's or an Oscar winning movie, or a major motion film where I actually speak lol, I was of course enraptured by all the fashion...I will skip over Jhud's dress because we all know my so unwarranted jealous hate-on I have an analysis of her dress will be layered with all that crap....but then she'd really be no worse than everyone else whose razor sharp collar bones I talk about incessantly lol. Speaking of... Got super depressed when I saw Natalie Portman. Super gorgeous pregnant or not, AND...she still can wear Jimmy Choo's and have visible collar bones while pregnant...dude NOT FAIR lol! What else, (still trying hard not to talk about Jhud), well I guess I can sum it up like this...everyone looked gorgeous, hungry, and pained (some of those dressed just did NOT look comfortable..pretty but not comfortable lol). So, in an effort to not talk about all of these women's bodies (especially JHud) I will talk about the MEN! Hugh Jackman lookin old...I need those Wolverine locks back! Robert Downey Jr. ....nothing like a lil crazy (which I find hot) wound up into a nicely tuxedoed package. Hmm what else...I will not discuss women's fashion though I REALLY want to because I realize it's really just an analysis of their bodies and since they get enough of that shit everyday I don't want to add to it....but I will say....best dress of the nite...and everyone will forget this one but...Mandy Moore's Blue performance dress....LOVED IT! That is an OSCAR'S DRESS! Right behind her was Amy Adam's blue sequined fantasticness.. though I must note that I was NOT a fan of the big non-matching gaudy jewelry craze that every stylist thought was okay! Okay enough post Oscar's coverage....

Portions Challenge

I hope to watch my portions when eating out this entire weekend (this includes dinner at Grannie's and the Oscar Party I'm supposed to go to).

Well the update is that I didn't do horrible. I ate a small portion at my Grandmothers.....after I'd eaten a large portion of Chinese at home. So I was full. Then I went to an Oscar's party and had two tacos and nibbled on chips and veggies but that was later. In general I felt really full and kind of uncomfortable all evening. Yeah someone has to learn to say NO! lol. I did however, drink like 4 glasses of water Sunday. I was so full I was like I just want to stay refreshed so kudos to me realizing I felt full and to stick to the water...

It actually felt good to pee cause I feel my food moving down!

Stretching Challenge for This Weekend

I hope to do 20 minutes of stretching sometime this weekend...


Well I actually did like 15 minutes of stretching with my very non flexible nephew on Saturday (who ironically wants to learn how to do a split...yeah someone's watched waaaaayyyy to much Usher) then we stretched again for like 10 minutes on Sunday. So, big ups to the nephew for totally reminding me of my challenge! I love that little runt....

Real Talk Accesssment...

Okay let's break this down...I need to be losing more weight and though I'm eating okay watching my portions and trying to make good choices...I'm still honestly half assing this. I'm not journaling on the weekends, I'm not drinking water after 5pm....Okay I'm going to brainstorm here...

Okay since I clearly CANNOT attack all of these things at once...I am going to try to wok on one a day. Since I know I never journal on the weekend I'm not going to do that one. That's just asking for failure. I will try to work on the Stretching on Sat and My Portions when eating out since I know that's probably gonna happen. I think these two are doable and as bummed as I am over today's eating I can't let this discourage me. I'm gonna have many more (hopefully not too many more) days where I eat all my points b4 dinner. That's why I have the extra points. As well, I had a thought for a moment of "Why even try. Just admit you're going to need to get the lap band". Yeah had that thought during lunch and yeah....it was a bad day but I'm not ready to go there yet! I am in this thing till July...and that's real talk!

Phabulously Phrustrated,

E

Challenge!

So, why did I have a co-worker today try and challenge my WW prowess? We are ordering Mexican and I ordered 1 chicken, 1 steak, and 1 veggie taco. And she tried to tell me that was more than a chicken burrito from La Cebollita. That is was only 7 points according to online. See what she does is point it online as the generic entry, "Chicken and Cheese Burrito", rather than point each item separately. Because come on a commercially prepared burrito is going to be different than something that is made fresh. And furthermore what 's in that commercially prepared burrito? Did she count the extra large flour burrito shell that's 9 points by itself? The the chicken...definitely at least 6 oz's of chicken or more for what 6 points, she counts her veggies at a zero which I'll let slide but we can't forget the handful of cheese they are going to put on there for a whopping 6pts (at least a cup) ? So her "healthier" Chicken and Cheese burrito if bought from La Cebollita is about 21 points!!! Versus my tacos...I'll spare you the break down and just give you the total...18 points (no cheese) and that's with sour cream! I saved three points thank you very much! And I'm okay eating that cuz I had like 2 ozs of peanuts and some dried apricots for breakfast lol...hell I still got like 25 something points left for dinner and dessert baby lol....see I understand the program I just don't journal lol...

Addendum...

I just got my order...there was avocado in the dam veggie taco that bumped my total up to 23 FUCK I loose....FUCK!

Progress Continued...lol

Journaling

Forgot to add this probably because I'm still not doing it consistently! I mean I'm still only journaling during the day. WTF? I will preface this with I know this is an excuse but it's still a reality....by the time I figure out what I'm eating for dinner I like eat, stay up for like 15 minutes then go to sleep lol. I know LAME! I gotta figure out a way to nip this in the butt....gonna try and work it out on the next blog...