HURDLE!---NonCobblerGate

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(I was trying for the Star Wars theme lol...)

So last night I went against my best judgement and didn't eat the dessert I'd been wanting and planning to make ALL day because I didn't want to spend the money to just go get some dam milk.  So, instead of just going to get the dam milk or a doughnut or something to kill my sugar jones triggered by a packages of crumb cakes earlier...I DEPREIVED MYSELF and as a result binged the rest of the night.  And not like concisously! I keep trying to find something that was going to be "better" and "healthier" that the 9pt low fat peach cobbler I planned to make.  In the interim that tacked on like 20 friggin point sof pudding, peanut butter, tortilla chips, and hummus! 

I am noting this...not berating myself.  But this is one of those times I should have simply listened to my gut (literally) and made what I could have honestly enjoyed and then been done with.  Hey I could have lived with eating up some of my weekly points on a fasntastic piece of cobbler that I hardly ever make----that's what they're there for---but instead I tried to do what was "better" than that, "heathlier", make a "smarter" choice when the right choice was to listen EARL and not all those imaginary adjectives that did nothing but eat up all my dam weekly points lol! 

Speaking of the sugar jones...It started with a crumb cake yesterday, then I had the cobbler craving, then I had a doughnut for breakfast (with a banana) today clearly have not squashed sugar jones lol.   This always seems to happen after I eat commerically prepared baked goods...I CAN'T STOP.  Dam trigger foods!  But I'm going to try something revolutionary....instead of depriving myself tonight (and FROM NOW ON) and therefore setting myself up for an even bigger failure than just eating the dam things to begin with, I am going to start BAKING UP A STORM.  lol.  I'm so broke right now (like $0.00 broke).  But I am going to scrap of some change and get some milk and I'm going to make my daggone cobbler, some no bake cookies (on Thursday), and I have a THOUSAND packages of SF/FF pudding and the daggone crusts (for once) so I may make a pudding pie too!  I should have a well stocked arnsel of healthy desserts to kill this Sugar Jones.  And since I'm not that great of a baker lol, I can eat my healthy BAKED stuff (cause a pudding cup just won't get it...I need to bring out the big guns to get "The Jones" lol) and it satisfiys me but I don't generally want more lol.  Hey we all have our strengths mine are cobblers and crisps, everything else i gotta really concentrate on lol. 

Okay am feeling much better about Noncobblergate (dam that was good one) because I realize where I goofed and I will not be making that mistake again.  I mean even if I have no baked goods on hand to get me through my sugar jones (it comes and gos) I know next time...without ANY doubt no matter what anyone says from NOW ON...."Earl, if you've been thinking about the same piece of food for hours just eat a sensible portion of the dam thing or you'll pay for it later---like everytime!  This will not change and THAT is OKAY!"  Okay am done now...:).


Phakin and Bakin Tonight!

Earl