Well today is the day folks! I am voluntarily walking 3.2 miles in support of WeightWatchers and healthy living in general. I know I am nervous because I cleaned my whole bathroom today (cept for the toilet was getting tired had to scrub tub lol). Whenever I wake up and clean....I'm avoiding something. BUT I said 6 weeks ago I would do this. If it takes me 3 dam hours I'm walking it! It shouldn't lol, but I don't know if I will hit my goal time of 1 hour and 15 minutes. I mean I haven't walked in like a week and a half and since then the hip has gone out to the point of needing the chiro. But NO EXCUSES!
I will read through my Walking Guidelines before I leave. I just need to remeber to enjoy the experience, take pictures, and go at my pace! Especially nursing the ol trick hip lol. Okay...I'm also nervous that I will get there and chicken out. What if everybody is all fit and stuff? Of course this is all in my head but what is it about overwight people that we feel instantly at ease when we see someone "like us". Well then when we loose the weight will I still have that to comfort me in other situations? Okay...that is another blog. I'm writing to get my jitters out....
I know I will succeed I just have to not be embaraassed. I'm gonna be nervous cause I've never done anything like this, but I am afraid (for some reason) of embarassing myself. But then part of me is like...I think walking 3 friggin miles is a pretty big feat for someone who's been overweight their entire life! I should have NOTHING to be embarassed about.
I know this is bad but what is fueling me more than anything...like I got dressed for the walk to this thought...is I want to prove to all those people who are always like "I'll help you loose weight" then they for whatever reason get busy with other things that I mean what I say and I sya what I mean. I am changingmy life regardless of wether others want to help. I mean again...ain't nobody gonna walk this 3.2 miles for me right? lol. And no I'm not turninginto one of those self righteous dieters who talk shit about people who are not trying to get healthier. No way! The one thing I have reiterated from Day 1 is that you gotta be ready mentally to make a change. NO EXCUSES. It sucks...you bet. Every day, every meal, every occasion out because you can't just throw caution to the wind. Does that suck YES. Is it what I need to do to loose weight and improve my health...right now...YES. I will finish this 5K (maybe on one hip), I will loose weight, and I will improve my mind, body, and spirit on this journey. Hopefully without turning into a self righteous judgemental prick lol. Okay let'd do the dam thing!
Ready to Walk,
Princess Phabbo (a.k.a Earl)
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