Check In!...bad Earl!

Yes, I have been bad I have not blogged in like two weeks! Eek!  Well here goes...


WW

So I get back from vacay FULLY expecting a weight gain, and to my surprise in two weeks I'd lost 6.2 lbs!  Probably because we walked everywhere.  No to mention playing in the ocean and site seeing.  What this tells me is basically something I already know...Earl has got the food thing down but needs to MOVE HER BUTT!  Consequently, I had been trying to wear my WW movement monitor but I seem to have misplaced it after voluntarily, yes VOLUNTARILY walking to Oak Park last Saturday! Kudos for me!  See that's the thing, like anybody actually starting the activity is the hard part.  Once I start I'm focused and interested but it's just getting past that initial 15 minutes where I try to talk myself out of exercising.....will have to work on finding some jedi-mind trick for that ;).

Confidence

So, I didn't mention this but while in Maine I had to "put my money where my mouth" was.  I had a slight issue with Azch. Basically, I had made him into to such the perfect guy...in my head...I was too scared to hit on the boy when I got in front of him!  I could feel myself intentionally avoiding him and not looking him in the eye.  It was weird and I DID NOT LIKE IT.  I said I was only going to live invigorating realities and here I was skirting the reality because I was scared.  To be fair he was also kinda acting like a square, not really drinking or partying so it made it kind of awkward to try and talk to him when he was not really talking to other people and he was definitely "being the good  bro/cousin/son".  Regardless, after realizing I wasn't going to make a move I got really angry with myself.  I had planned my attack!  Prayed for the period gods to make mine come on early and POOF it comes on a week early.  I brought the cute clothes, had my couple of drinks and then he kinda turned me off with the Goody Two shoes act.  But instead of still flirting with him I froze up.  It's like how do I flirt sober...well that's another problem lol.  My main issue was I felt like I had wasted my chance, wasted sooo much brain energy and time and for what????  I was so angry with myself I cried.  It was pretty ugly.  So now there is a certain somebody at my job, not the Man Whore lol, that I am looking at.  I think he may be gay but I'm certainly going to put some feelers out.  I've already had the "we're a couple" fantasy so I got to catch it before it turns into a toxic crush.  Yeah that's a good name for this negative behavior....toxic crushing.  Toxic to me not the guy :).

Career

Well unfortunately I still work for this "childcare agency" and I use those words LOOSELY lol.  I am however REALLY excited to be going back to the GM.  Primarily because I need the money and I miss it.  I know crazy lol.  Who misses a second job that causes them to work 60 total hours a week?  Plus I want to keep my bartending skills up to par so that I can not feel like and idiot when I get my BASSETT license, HOPEFULLY in late November.  That is my target date.  So, then I will have a month to find somewhere to tend and hopefully god willing go down to part time at the "childcare agency" starting beginning to mid January.  I have a really good plan set out for the Fall.  Oh not to mention I'm working with 2nd Story in October/November :) ! I hope I can get things crackin without any sort of melt down lol.  I mean I'm going to go hard from now till mid October...like 4 days at the second job.  Then I'll back off a bit for 2nd story, then come back hard for the month of December.