Busy is an Excuse!

Why is it that I go through these blogging lulls? Well, a lot has been happening since the start of September I guess...

First, I went back to the GDM which has sucked up all my free time. And since the beginning of October I've been working on a story for 2nd Story (during these times I give myself permission to slack on blogging so I can focus on the 2nd story process). And to be fair my 2nd Story story is about my unnatural hate on for J-Hud (told you I'd turn it into a performance lol). I had to really sit down and focus on what I wanted to convey to the audience while tying in the hate and forgiveness theme and J-Hud. At first I was majorly forcing it, then I just focused on what I wanted the audience to know more than anything and that's to believe---not just idly think---that you are ugly is NOT healthy and that is goes wayyy beyond what we wear but how we truly see ourselves in terms of our worth. I know deep lol.

I also get some crazy big laughs in there talking about J-hud…but I won't ruin it for you. I actually sat next to the podcast guy at a 2ndStory event and found out most of my stories have been audio recorded! I've been so focused on video that it didn't even occur to me to see if there were audio recordings. I guess they've been podcasting my stories? I know weird, well I hope someone hears something I've wrote and it's changed their lives for the better :).

Well since I copy and pasted my original text away, my other good news is that I took a big step towards showing loving kindness to myself  by putting a Wii on layaway! I'm so excited! Not only do I love the competitiveness of it, I love that I get to move and get more into the game! I will play my nephew's Michael Jackson game and do 3 songs and be sweatin like a pig lol. Hey Mike wasn't that skinny fa nothin! I also want to get some of the Just Dance games. And because there are like Harry Potter and Dancing With the Stars Wii games I don't see myself getting bored anytime soon! It will be good for my waistline and give me another option to walking.

In the interim, I believe it was last week, I did come home and do a workout tape one day and walk the next. I'm trying, but I think I'm going to....go back to the basics for reals. Like journaling and everything :(. I think I got too cocky once I started cooking my own food and weight went down. Then I got busy and lazy and fast food has ruled for the last 2 weeks. I got some "extra" cash that fueled that, but now I'm gonna do bills which should cut that shit out quick lol. Also, I 've been sick the last two days and I've been eating...wait for it....grilled chicken from Jewel's and like 2 helpings of regular old iceberg lettuce mix with ranch dressing. I don't even eat a lot of ranch dressing but for some reason this combo seemed to have hit my palette right this week lol. I also bought some ramen to help soothe my powderhouse dry throat. Yes, I know the salt content is high but they are filling and as long as I drink lemon water I can shed some of that excess salt (I only use a half to 2/3rds of the seasoning packet anyway).

Oh I've also been designing a friend's website in my spare time, so my computer brain has been focused on that too. Anywho, I better go and point for the day, get some bills paid, and try and catch up on my work.
Muah!



Pheelin A Tad Stressed lol,


Earl