yeah...that happened!

It's been a wild and crazy end of August but here goes!...

So clearly it's the end of times lol. Earthquake in Richmond, tropical storm in NewYork City, Earl's not a virgin anymore....lol yeah it happened.  I was drunk but at least I wasn't wasted and I remember everything.  I thank my girls or it never would have happened. "Don't think just rip that band aid off" was their mantra.  It was fun though.  I won't go into detail but I can say that I had sex on a moonlit beach, while on vacation, with a boston guy named Nick who...and this is the best...was wearing an "Italian Stallion" shirt! LOL.  I think it's funny.  I don't regret doin it I just wish he hadn't got white boy wasted afterwards lol.Oh wait did I mention that me, him, and my girls skinny dipped after we came back!!! Yeah I knocked off a couple bucket list things in one night lol sex, sex on the beach, and skinny dipping!

On a more emotional note, I was glad it happened because I was seriously starting to believe that I was just that undesireable.  And not to worry I had stopped drinking like 45 minutes before it happened so I was pretty much in control still---drunk---but we had our facilties together enough to make it happen captain!  So now the challenge is...is this what I have to do to let down my insecurities and get close to a guy---get drunk?  That's not a trend I'd like to continue but I would of course like to have sex again so I better figure somethin out lol...

And NONE of this would have happened if I hadn't started giving myself some breaks and being loving and caring instead of analyzing and critiquing...I guess my therapist was right lol...

Your DePhlowered One (lol...lmao!),

Earl