So, I can vaguely remember starting this blog this past summer but I've never posted anything (probably because I forgot I created it. I do things like that a lot...). So, after reading some weight loss blog success stories on Womensday.com I figured why not. I said I was going to give this a real go before July 18th, 2011so here I am....why this date?
July 18, 2011 is my 30th birthday...and if I am not under 300 lbs, it will be the day I call for a consultation on getting the Lap Band.Let me just put it out there....I DO NOT WANT TO DO THAT SHIT! lol. Like for realsies. But I am a professional actor (among other things) and if I want to really give that career a go I need to loose the double chin. Let me be clear I AIN'T NEVER GONNA BE SMALL! I can't even picture myself at a size 16....but just to be able to move and stand for hours on a set I need to get my phabulous phannie in shape. And considering it gets harder and harder to keep things firm after 30 I'm trying to suck this last year of 20-year old skin snap backness up so I can loose weight and not look like I'm 40 or a dried prune lol. I am currently 325 lbs and clearly I'm 29 lol. My goal between Jan 1, 2011, and July 18, 2011 is simply to loose that 25 lbs. I know some people who can loose waaaaayyyy more in 7 months but I'm keeping the goal simple and attainable plus...I can't even remember that last time I stepped on scale and saw the number 2 first! I've been in Threedom since college (that's a WW message board term), and even then the first time I got sick sophomore year was the first time I weighed myself in years and I was 309 then. So, getting to Twoterville would be a dream come true. But I'll take any loss right now. Slow and steady till July, because god knows I DO NOT WANT TO LAP BAND my weight away. I learn nothing if I do it like that and I'm a nerd who never does anything unless I can learn from it.
Clearly, I'm more concerned about how it will effect me emotionally than physically because I'm very independent, ambitious, and creative. And to let something else do all the work feels like I'm short changing myself. It's not even about a sense of "cheating". If I got this done it would be like admitting food and weight has power over me and that just don't sit right with my conscious. I am NOT ruled by fear or anything or anyone else, so I'll be dammed if I'll be ruled by my waistline!
Okay now that I'm off that soap box...I'm just gonna put this out there for myself...
I WILL NOT BLOG EVERYDAY...because I know I'm not at a place where I can commit to it.
I WILL BLOG EVERY WEEK...I'd like to give myself a personal challenge every week. That will help with the blogging.
I WILL NOT USE THIS BLOG AS A FOOD JOURNAL...again see point one.
however,
I WILL START A FOOD JOURNAL TODAY...ewww. I am absent minded and I hated this about WW but it was interesting to reflect on things I'd made and ingested lol. This is the only time I wish I had a smartphone. They have a WW app. And if I can check Facebook 2-3 times a day on my phone I know I could journal! But alas...hmm just checked my email tab and what do I see? A "Come back to Weight Watchers today" email....man sometimes I think god has a wicked sense of humor...Fine I will join WW online today to help with the food journaling.
Anywho now that I got the pressure of being like every other blogger off my back (hence the stuff I will not do section)...here's what's up currently...
I joined a $300 weightloss challenge at my job. It's pretty simple, the person who looses the largest percent of weight by April 1st wins a $100 from every participant....talk about motivation! And as I mentioned before I'm very competitive, so I'm pulling out the big guns for this. Starting a weightloss blog and secretly rejoining weight watchers lol. They don't know that because I just officially decided it. I've been thinking about it since the 1st but after seeing that email I had a stroke of genius....I could join online till the challenge ends on April 1st. Then start going to meetings with a friend that I promised I'd join with after she has her baby in May. Yeah...told you big guns. This way I can ease into the full blown WW with some confidence and by the time July comes...I should have theoretically lost SOMETHING hell!
Joining WW online will take care of the journalling (eww) and this blog will hopefully keep things interesting. Hopefully this is not my last blog lol. So, my official goal for this week is to blog again before next Monday the 24th. I also need a jump start so I want to commit to either trying a Zumba class or creating my own dance workout (like I've been wanting to for a week and a half) by next Monday. I'm thinking...16 8cts should be a good goal. In the interim...I can't believe I'm doing this...but like I said big guns! Go hard or go home.....I'm going to extend my break from auditioning till April. I want to focus on some writing projects anyway and the extra time will help me focus on this FINAL weightloss journal. I swear...July 18th...D-DAY! lol...You all will understand so much more about me and who I am...but I want to start and then let the crazy out slowly:).
Stay Phabby...
Earl
July 18, 2011 is my 30th birthday...and if I am not under 300 lbs, it will be the day I call for a consultation on getting the Lap Band.Let me just put it out there....I DO NOT WANT TO DO THAT SHIT! lol. Like for realsies. But I am a professional actor (among other things) and if I want to really give that career a go I need to loose the double chin. Let me be clear I AIN'T NEVER GONNA BE SMALL! I can't even picture myself at a size 16....but just to be able to move and stand for hours on a set I need to get my phabulous phannie in shape. And considering it gets harder and harder to keep things firm after 30 I'm trying to suck this last year of 20-year old skin snap backness up so I can loose weight and not look like I'm 40 or a dried prune lol. I am currently 325 lbs and clearly I'm 29 lol. My goal between Jan 1, 2011, and July 18, 2011 is simply to loose that 25 lbs. I know some people who can loose waaaaayyyy more in 7 months but I'm keeping the goal simple and attainable plus...I can't even remember that last time I stepped on scale and saw the number 2 first! I've been in Threedom since college (that's a WW message board term), and even then the first time I got sick sophomore year was the first time I weighed myself in years and I was 309 then. So, getting to Twoterville would be a dream come true. But I'll take any loss right now. Slow and steady till July, because god knows I DO NOT WANT TO LAP BAND my weight away. I learn nothing if I do it like that and I'm a nerd who never does anything unless I can learn from it.
Clearly, I'm more concerned about how it will effect me emotionally than physically because I'm very independent, ambitious, and creative. And to let something else do all the work feels like I'm short changing myself. It's not even about a sense of "cheating". If I got this done it would be like admitting food and weight has power over me and that just don't sit right with my conscious. I am NOT ruled by fear or anything or anyone else, so I'll be dammed if I'll be ruled by my waistline!
Okay now that I'm off that soap box...I'm just gonna put this out there for myself...
I WILL NOT BLOG EVERYDAY...because I know I'm not at a place where I can commit to it.
I WILL BLOG EVERY WEEK...I'd like to give myself a personal challenge every week. That will help with the blogging.
I WILL NOT USE THIS BLOG AS A FOOD JOURNAL...again see point one.
however,
I WILL START A FOOD JOURNAL TODAY...ewww. I am absent minded and I hated this about WW but it was interesting to reflect on things I'd made and ingested lol. This is the only time I wish I had a smartphone. They have a WW app. And if I can check Facebook 2-3 times a day on my phone I know I could journal! But alas...hmm just checked my email tab and what do I see? A "Come back to Weight Watchers today" email....man sometimes I think god has a wicked sense of humor...Fine I will join WW online today to help with the food journaling.
Anywho now that I got the pressure of being like every other blogger off my back (hence the stuff I will not do section)...here's what's up currently...
I joined a $300 weightloss challenge at my job. It's pretty simple, the person who looses the largest percent of weight by April 1st wins a $100 from every participant....talk about motivation! And as I mentioned before I'm very competitive, so I'm pulling out the big guns for this. Starting a weightloss blog and secretly rejoining weight watchers lol. They don't know that because I just officially decided it. I've been thinking about it since the 1st but after seeing that email I had a stroke of genius....I could join online till the challenge ends on April 1st. Then start going to meetings with a friend that I promised I'd join with after she has her baby in May. Yeah...told you big guns. This way I can ease into the full blown WW with some confidence and by the time July comes...I should have theoretically lost SOMETHING hell!
Joining WW online will take care of the journalling (eww) and this blog will hopefully keep things interesting. Hopefully this is not my last blog lol. So, my official goal for this week is to blog again before next Monday the 24th. I also need a jump start so I want to commit to either trying a Zumba class or creating my own dance workout (like I've been wanting to for a week and a half) by next Monday. I'm thinking...16 8cts should be a good goal. In the interim...I can't believe I'm doing this...but like I said big guns! Go hard or go home.....I'm going to extend my break from auditioning till April. I want to focus on some writing projects anyway and the extra time will help me focus on this FINAL weightloss journal. I swear...July 18th...D-DAY! lol...You all will understand so much more about me and who I am...but I want to start and then let the crazy out slowly:).
Stay Phabby...
Earl
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