Holy shit...
I have never completed the 12 week program in the 7 years I have been on and off WW! So, I just wanted to note how proud I am that I stuck in there when I didn't want to journal (still don't but I'm losin!), when I threw out my trick hip TWICE, went through the many many trips to the grocery store and budgeting, boughts of predinsone and self doubt...... I MADE IT! I MADE IT THROUGH THE WHOLE WW 12 WEEK PROGRAM!
Of course I'm going to continue :), but I have only previously made it 10 weeks, and 9 before that. I believe this time, I'm really not going to stop....a refreshing yet scary as thought. I mean I bitch and moan plenty about how hard it is but like most I don't know what to do with new found focus on changing. I guess I'm going to actually have to learn to take a compliment...assuming it's a genuine one. Just today I got an actual compliment (not back handed compliment) from a co-worker at another site who ran out her door just to say that she and her fellow teacher noticed "all the weight I had been losing" and to tell me I was lookin good and keep at it! I had to note this because I'm learning very quickly that genuine kindness comes few and far between when you are obese. I don't know what it is with the world that an obese person can get ostrosized just as much as a sex offender (in my humble opinion). It's hard when people stare, children point and insult you to your face, clothes are more expensive, people ASSUME you don't want to move and don't ask you to physicallty social events (softball, volleyball, etc), and let's not EVEN get started on dating and intimacy for obese people...but like everyone says "we do it to ourselves" so we must like and deserve it. Okay am getting soap boxy so I will leave you with this..it can be brutally rough being different so a little genuine kindness goes a long way :).
Be Kind and Phine!
Earl
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