Yup Self Detructive Fat...

Dudes I have been eating like absolute CRAP for two days. I mean white castle!, pizza for two meals, veggies have become few and far between. CHOCOLATE...yeah a really stressful project at work sent me straight to the candy basket I've avoided for like 2.5 weeks straight! I just finished a Reese peanut butter cup....AHHHHHH! lol. It's not that bad. At least I am cognizant I am doing this. I knew the stressful project at work was just an excuse for me to validate not having willpower. Well, my strategy is to just give in to each and every impulse now----WAIT there is some logic here. Instead of feeling like I'm failing everyday for trying then not jumping back on program, I think the more glutinous I feel and the heavier I feel (this kinda food does not make one feel energized) I will be forced to change. I mean I am fighting a cold and not getting enough sleep and I need fuel not crap. It will get to me after a while. Okay this still sounds like bullshit...okay it's like if you ate steak everyday. Eventually it'd loose it's appeal as a treat and well eating steak all day would get boring right? So, if I can with stand this storm I'll be on the good foot. Or I could have a hugetastic gain and be F*cked lol. Not literary fireworks but I was honest and blogged about it so there. :)