Sunday, March 20, 2011
Day One Health....
I've decided that I really need to make a change....I'm not happy with a few things in my life and again I'll spare you the self deprecation and get to the heart of it. My period came on and kicked my bad nerve into high gear and I'm just not feeling it anymore. Being in pain, over weight, not able to exercise cause of the dam leg, not journaling, losing weight...I'm tired of it all. And though I'd love to quit my job that's not one thing I can change right now that's making me happy but I can change my weight...how is a different story. I went to the DayOne Health center's page. Should I get the lap band this is the place I want to do it. I registered to get more information and for their online introduction seminar. I have not viewed the seminar yet and I'm going to put it off until I see my shrink on Thurs. I just needed to feel like some progress---even the "cheating" kind---has been made on my body. Yes, I still see the Lap Band as cheating and I'm terrified of getting it and STILL failing but at this point I AM AT MY WITS END WITH THIS CRAP AND I AM TIRED OF THINKING ABOUT MY WEIGHT AND BODY EVERY SINGLE F-ING DAY! There I said it, and I'm done... -E
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Update: After seeing my therapist and talking to my friend Becca's cousin Sarah who is a message therapist, I have decided to take a different approach to moving to help with the pain aspect of healing my hip. It's natural but it's on the very cusp of going into "nursing" an injury land lol. So, I have still NOT viewed the intro video and will continue to not do so in an effort to seek out every possible resource on my own to remove the barriers (like a painful trick hip) that are preventing my success in weight loss :).
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