Irritable Earl....

*WARNING!: Yup I can tell my period is coming on because I turn into this vapid bitch from hell who eats EVERYTHING!  I'm serious, I am so moody and unhappy about things that I normally wouldn't even give brainpower to. Things like my job, where I'm at in my career, all these things that can be stressors depedning on HOW i think about them.  Add in a healthy dose of out of control hormone, and you get Irritable Earl.  But since Aunt Flo is on her way, and this has been on my mind.  Prepare for a rather bitchy BUT TRUE blog...*

So, I've noticed a lot of actresses and artists who are now trying to put out new material. The one thing that unites them....they're all alot THINNER.  Here's the list of the formerly phabbulous...(they're still fabulous lol):

Jordin Sparks
J-Hud (you knew she'd make the list lol)
Marcia Ambrosius (formerly of Floetry)
Kristie Alley
Pretty Much EVERY spokesperson for Jenny Graig
Raven
Queen Latifah
Monique
America Fererra

Yet larger artists like Kelly Clarkson and even Adelle who's SUPA popular right now...aren't getting the offers these other artists are.  Hell Adelle was on the cover of what was it Rolling Stone or something and what did they do?  CROP HER BODY OUT lol.  I'm going deaf at all the dam subliminal "if ya loose weight we'll find something for ya!"messages the Hollywood machine is throwing out like crack. But it has to, the Hollywood machine that is. The Hollywood Machine was built on one principle...sexy, trim, and attractive SELLS.  Now I didn't put "skinny" because Beyonce , Rhianna, Mariah Carrey (pre-trwins) have no problem selling what they got lol.  I also think attractive african american women like that get a pass.  But can you name one super popular larger WHITE girl? Oh no.  If you're white you gotta look like Megan Fox or Jennifer Aniston and if you're a little bookish  Tina Fey.  If you are out of that mold you're not going to even get a foot in the door to do that "killer monologue" you prepared. 

You know what i learned from these girls?  That if I want to live healthy and enjoy my life I need to continue WW, if I ever want to make it to the level of "superstar" or and hate to use this word "famous"...I'm going to have to get a lap band.  I don't have 5 more years to loose this weight.  By then I'll only be able to play cougars lol.  I hate the entertainment business.  There are very few artists and way too many talentless fools willing to do anything for the same fame that will tear them apart 2-3 years after their "big break"....good quote...I should remember that one...

Maybe I'm destined to only strive for the regional theatre level? I know people who have Tony's in that league...so it's nothing to turn a nose up at....but didn't I also tell mysself if I was going to do this, I was going to go for it all?  Maybe I will get some great movie roll that I rock at my current phabulous weight...but then what?  Six months down the line do I pull an Ashley Judd and keep playing that same character?  Or do I go the indie route like Natlaie Portman and Penelope Cruz both huge stars who started and still do indie work regularly.  I think in order to keep that kind of career, you have to deal with the Hollywood machine.  you can't fight it...all you do is try to survive it with some sense of self....after they've pre packedmaged waxed, tanned, dyed, and straved you into something marketable.... yes I ranted so sue me!



Irritably Yours....

E