First I cooked all evening for the week which was nice because I got a head up on the game and if I actually had a man coming over I'd need to do that before he got there anyway lol. I also bought a VERY yummy bottle of sangria from Aldi's which was FANTASTIC. I chopped up an apple and threw in a couple of strawberries and sipped on that while I cooked and listened to music. Sooooo relaxing. So, by the time I was done cookin I was a little tipsy, very important in the breaking down of walls lol. So, then I took a good long shower. I scrubbed and scented myself appropriately then gave myself a fantastic pedicure with my ped egg. I must note that I was naked the whole time---after shower naked time is the best and you know it so don't you judge me!
Then go time came. Would I put on the fishnet dress, heels, makeup and traipse around my apartment?
HELL YES!....
I got completely dressed, makeup, earrings, leather wrist cuffs, hair, black lace high cut panties, strapless bra, and yes the aforementioned fishnet dress, herein referred to as "Lucy" (it needs a racy kinda name), and my patent leather 3 inch heels ...yowsers. I know I was supposed go through a mock seduction/date simulation thing but I decided to do my own sexy photoshoot instead. I felt a little crazy talking to an imaginary guy but by this time the wine had kicked in and I just wanted to feel sexy...not crazy lol. So, I started by just walking around in the get up. Not easy at first cause I'm not used to having to make it look "sexy". Then I started taking pics...like all over my apartment lol. To be honest at first I was like "Really Earl? Wow that is not so attractive" when I was looking at the first few pics. Just not a fan of my back rolls but I discovered to my suprise...my ass looks great in lace panties and heels...I'm just sayin lol. I also lost the bra towards the end. Why not it was my dam shoot and ain't nobody EVER going to see the X-rated ones, so hey....go hard or go home right? As well, I discovered I do have a "sexy" look. To explain, anytime I think I will be having pictures taken I always try to get a "sexy" look together and I always just end up looking "cute". Well between the smoky eye makeup, leather cuffs, and red lips it was hard to see "cute" anywhere :).
So, what did I learn and how did this help me on my journey to continually loving myself....well I think some of my anxiety about being naked in front of a guy has eased. I mean push come to shove, I'll just shake a lil ass at em. I mean I really was surprised that enjoyed looking at MY OWN backside that much lol. Of course I had to post a pic on facebook (a non-X rated one of course) cause there's no use in discovering something good about my self/body only to keep hiding it from everyone like I do the "bad" things I don't like about my self/body. I photoshopped a painting like layer onto it but it's still me! See below!
Pheelin Just Fine ;),
Earl
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