...no progress...

So, I agained 3.2 of the 3.4 I lost last week back.  I was hoping that I lost the weight because of the 5K and not the sickness.  Well looks like it was the sickness.  Now on this starting to get muggy Monday ...I'm not feelin it today.  I'm not feelin anything....writing, losing weight, acting, saving money, going on vacation...all of the things that have basically made my life interesting lately.  I don't mean that to sound all self depricating. I'm just not feeling it.  Primarily because I've had no progress on a lot of those fronts.  Still haven't sat down to write, still not saving money---in fact I got a letter form the IRS saying I owe them 1100 lol (I think my sister forgot my W2 from my second job), acting for like the first time in my life has really lost it's appeal---due to the weight thing, only walked once last week....and July18th is just around the corner...D-Day...Lap Band consult day....no bueno....

I'm mentioning this because I'm lacking motivation here clearly lol, but I'm not sure why?  Seeing the scale go up I'm sure contributed but I haven't been feelin bad...hmmm.  I talk to my shrink today so I'm sure I'll admit some shit to myself that I'm not willing to admit conciously now lol.  That's how it works with my therapist.  I unconciously think things that may be way out so I don't give them a second thought.  And then I mention it to her and she's mostly always like wow I think that's a great idea lol. Oh and fyi I think I have a dead mouse in...wait for it...my bedroom AGAIN.  I'm batting a thousand this weekend and I was barely home lol.

Just Not Pheelin it Today,

Earl